Sunday, July 5, 2015

Selfie Sunday and Apologies

 
About 4 weeks ago I took this pic as a joke for hubs. Turned out the joke was on me after I landed in the hospital later that night. I’m not dead, I’m not ignoring messages or comments or posts, I’m just a little sore (still) and trying to get my life back on track.

This will sound incredibly silly, but I had severe heat/sun stroke and severe second degree sunburns across my neck, back, shoulders and both legs after working outside at my parents home. I didn’t even know sunburn could be so bad they would talk about possible skin grafting. (We did Not need to go that route, thankfully.) Anyhow, parents home is 500 miles away. I wasn't hospitalized the entire time, but there was no way I could drive my van/kids back home on my own until few days ago. It took 2 days for my knees to forgive me for the trip as it is. My autistic child still hasn't forgiven Mommy for her stint with stupid and has to be touching me at all times to make sure I'm okay. His healing will probably take a little longer. :(

For anyone wondering, I did have on sunscreen (SPF 50). I did drink water. I just ignored a lot of other ‘signs’ that things weren’t going so well. (Once the power tools start overheating after 15 minutes use it might be too hot out for you, too. We won't go into the hallucinations about the belt sander and high torque drill and their conspiracy to overthrow me at the annual power tools ball. O_o)

Sitting at my computer hurts my shoulders and my knees quite a bit still so I’m not back at this moment, despite being at my home again.  But I feel horrible about not responding to all the things I see going on. If you’ve messaged/commented/posted and haven’t had a response please be patient just a little while longer. Healing at home is better, but it will still take some time. <3

Thursday, June 4, 2015

Chapter 3.13- Less Than Frigid

*****Language warning… again. Or just skip the text below the 14th pic. ;) *****


            Making it to the school with 5 minutes to spare, Mariah glowed with unexpected pride. But today an officious little letter had summoned her, inviting her to a conference with Ms.Ponds and Mrs.Duncan about her darling little Dove.
            Most likely, they wanted to put her in the gifted program, Mariah thought smugly. She, herself, had never been considered for that elite class, a point she had seethed over it until graduation. Now was her chance to prove to Mrs.Duncan how wrong she’d been to overlook a Sixkiller.




            The grim cinderblock walls Mariah had been so familiar with were long banished, replaced with plaster and moldings, bright lights and cheerful colors. When they’d toured the building for Open House Dove had pouted over all the blue.
            “It’s a boys’ school!” She’d lamented, begging hard not to be subjected to the torture of walking these halls each day.
            Ms.Ponds had taken special time with Dove that evening, trying to coax her into a state of acceptance. She’d succeeded, barely, by assuring her when she went upstairs as a third grader, the halls were a light yellow instead. “But they can’t let you into the third grade unless you’ve passed kindergarten (reception,) first and second grades down here in the blue halls first.”




            “Mariah Sixkiller! Hi!” Mariah tried not to cringe. Jesse Ponds had attended with her and Roger and it irked Mariah to no end that she looked almost exactly as she did when they’d graduated. “The stroller might be a little too big for the door, again, Haha! But you can park it out here and Dove’s siblings can play on the carpet while we talk.”
            Mariah wrinkled her nose, barely managed to conceal her sneer. Jesse would bring up how she’d spent almost 5 minutes trying to wrestle the stroller through the doorway when she was here last.
            “The kids are all in Music right now, but when we’re finished here you’re more than welcome to walk down to the Music Classroom with me to fetch them. She’d love to see that you’re here.”




            Settling the twins as Jesse, er… Ms.Ponds, seated herself next to Mrs.Duncan, Mariah felt like Gulliver as he visited Lilliput the tables and chairs were so small. Taking a moment, she allowed her eyes to roam the classroom.
            It was then she’d realized she’d be expected to sit on one of those miniature chairs. All the adult sized ones were taken. Tucking her skirt, she sat gingerly and smiled broadly.
            “I’m sure you remember Mrs.Duncan,” Jesse... dammit. Ms.Ponds beamed. “Were you in her classes with us? I can’t remember…”
            “No,” she answered as civilly as she could. “But I do remember seeing her in the halls.”
            Mrs. Duncan smiled, almost, at her before returning her attention to Je-Ms.Ponds. “It’s been a while since I’ve been over the gifted program, though.”
            Jesse beamed back. “Too long. Mrs. Duncan is now an administrator here.”
            Mariah wanted to gag.




            Jesse faltered, a little confused as to how to turn the conversation to the issues at hand. “So you received the notification of conference in the mail.”
            Keeping her smile sweetly in place, Mariah nodded.
            “Of course,” Jesse took a deep breath. “Uhm, so the first month or so of our year we spend trying to figure out what each of our students come to us already knowing, uhm… Where they’re at so to speak.”
            Again, Mariah nodded. Dove was exceptionally gifted. She knew that already. Spit it out.
            “It takes us such a long time because we want to make sure the students are comfortable and performing as well as they can before we made decisions regarding their educational plan.”
            And Dove had astounded them on her very first day. They were putting her in first grade. No. Third. She was moving straight through the blue halls to the yellow and Ms.Ponds had lied to her and felt bad about it. Dove would understand. It’d be okay.




            Beside her, Ceeven pulled himself up on a chair, pushing it nearer his Mama. Ms.Ponds continued to drone on with the occasional glance at Mrs.Duncan while Mariah watched her boy. Of course, he too was exceptionally bright. Maybe he’d be one of those geniuses who graduated school while still a child.
            “We think a small group would be the best fitted for her. The students included in it would be carefully selected to make sure they’re personally compatible as well as all being about on par with each other so they’re all learning the same things at the same time.”
            Mariah tuned back in and nodded placidly.




            Mrs.Duncan cut her gaze toward Mariah briefly as she nodded. Seeing Mariah’s complacency she relaxed considerably and smiled warmly at her. It was the first time she’d ever been less than frigid and Mariah was suddenly on guard, her ears pricked and attention keen.
            Jesse also sighed and relaxed her shoulders at Mariah’s acquiescence.
            “With Dove we’ll be starting with recognizing her name. I know most parents would prefer we start with basics such as the alphabet or number recognition, but recognizing what your name looks like is really important right now and we can use that as a springboard to learning her ABC’s and the phonics of each letter.”
            Wait. Wait what?
            “Are you saying my Dove is STUPID?!?




            Jesse faltered at the look Mariah gave her. Finally, she gave up and allowed Mrs. Duncan to take over.
            “Of course not! All we’re saying is Dove came in a little behind some of her peers. We’d like to put her in a small group where they’re all working toward learning the same things. Many children are highly successful in such an environment and quickly catch up. But if she doesn’t, we can move her into a classroom where the curriculum is a little more remedial. If she’s willing to work hard, no matter which option is best for her, she’ll still most likely be ready for first grade right along with her peers.”




            “And if I say ‘no,’ Mrs.Duncan?”
            Bev, please. We’re all adults here.”
            “Fine, Bev, what if I say no?”
            “Mrs.Sixkiller-”
            Mariah, please. We’re all adults here.”
            Jesse took a deep breath and swallowed while Bev blinked rapidly at Mariah’s sour tone.
            “It’s a small group within our classroom. She’s not being pulled out, she won’t be singled out.” Jesse finally choked out.
            “This is a very common practice in kindergarten, Mariah.” Bev added.
            “NO.”




            You’d have thought Mariah had dropped a bomb by the reactions of the educators sitting opposite her. But Mariah took joy in seeing them discomfited almost as badly as she’d been.
            “Neither of you seem to understand,” Mariah went on. “My Dove is a brilliant little girl. Exceptionally bright. I don’t think your testing is equipped for her.”
            “Mariah, please listen to me,” Bev pleaded. “No one is saying Dove isn’t an intelligent child. We’re not even insinuating that. In fact, what we’re saying is that if you allow us to educate her as we see fit we can ensure that she’s able to demonstrate just how smart she is.”




            Mariah stared stonily at Jesse. She was through interacting with Bev.
            “Dove? Doesn’t recognize her alphabet. Or numbers, Mariah. She can’t tell a 1 from a 5, an M from a C. If you don’t do this? She’ll most likely be repeating kindergarten,” Jesse said. “If you don’t do this? Her peers will notice she’s behind and they will avoid her.”
            “Are you suggesting you’d let her be bullied?!” Mariah’s eyebrows had shot up so high they’d nearly disappeared into her hair.




            “I’m not saying anything like that, Mariah!”
            Bev sighed, shaking her head.
            “I’m saying that if you don’t allow us to help her, you a-”
            “Jesse!” Bev warned.
            “Mariah,” Jesse said. “Please. Dove? Is an exceptional artist. We’ve watched her draw and doodle. She shows great capacity for learning technique and detail. If that’s not bright I don’t know what is.”
            “Clearly.” Mariah sneered.
            “Mrs. Sixkiller-”
            Mariah, please.”




            “We’re only wanting to help her,” Jesse’s tone had nearly become a pleading whine.
            “You’ve got to understand that we only want to help her, Mariah. We’re not the enemy here.”
            “And I am?” Mariah refused to look at Bev.
            “No! No nononono.”
            “So I’m a shitty parent?”




            Three things happened simultaneously.
            Bev winced so hard tears appeared on her cheeks, each quickly wiped away; Jesse’s hands flew up and she gasped out “Mariah!” and Vivia squealed at the top of her lungs as she sent pencils, papers, scissors and everything else within her reach flying.
            “Mrs.Sixkiller, I must ask that you please refrain from using such language in my classroom,” Jesse said, sternly. “I will also ask that you keep your children in check in here. Your daughter could have harmed your son when she pushed those scissors off.”




            “No matter,” Mariah’s voice dripped ice and fury. “We’re about to leave.”
            “Please, before you go,” Ms.Ponds was pleading again. “Please sign the Individualized Education Plan in front of you so we can help Dove.”
            “We only want what’s best for Dove,” Bev quietly chimed in. “Just like you.”
            “No.”
            “At least take it with you and read over it. You can sign it later and send it back.”
            “No.”
            “Please, Mariah.”
            Jesse stood as Mariah did, offering out the thick green folder in front of her.
            “All of our testing and her scores are in here. How well she did is written in black and white. See for yourself. Even the questions are there. Take it, please.”
            Mariah held out a single hand and the folder was placed in it. As soon as she felt the full weight she turned her palm sideways, allowing the folder and its contents to cascade to the floor mixing with Vivia’s mess.
            “No.”




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            When Dove arrived home from school that day she found a present from her mom. Though the easel was far too tall for her, a stool purloined from the bathroom was just about right and she delighted in the colorful tubes of paint and various brushes left in a case for her use.
            Mariah’s heart swelled to bursting. Of course Dove was a wonderful artist. She was wonderful at everything she did.

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Those meetings suck. And you’d be surprised how many parents react exactly like Mariah.

To go a little more in depth about that meeting, Mariah’s reaction there was a knee jerk. She’s desperately wanting something to go right and so was extra hurt when she finally grasped what the meeting was about. She didn’t act wisely, and will probably figure that out on her own at some point. When? That remains to be seen. Further clarification? Dove is NOT a child with special needs of any kind. I have NO plans to ever delve into that in story.

I’m not going to spell it out just yet, but anyone wanna take a stab at the roll here? :)

My apologies for the long break between the last and this one. Unfortunately, there will be at least an equally long break before the next is out. Life, the universe, and everything. You get it. ;)

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Liebster!



I know this is primarily a wordpress thingy running around, but I'm putting this over here also since this is the blog I update most often.
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Y'all are so sweet!
I was nominated by two super talented individuals: Toxi and Melissa (Cali, Caterpillar.)
*HUGS FOR YOU BOTH!!! Thank you!!!!
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The rules for receiving this award are:
1. Post the award on your blog.
2. Thank the blogger who presented the award and link back to their blog.
3. Nominate 5-11 bloggers whom you feel deserve this award and have fewer than or equal to 3,000 followers.
4. Answer 11 questions posted by the nominator, and ask your nominees 11 questions.

Once more, just because it can't be said enough: THANK YOU!!! =D

My nominations are:
1.) FutureCarrie: Her Matthews RLC is really developed. No character left behind and many of them are super super sweet, even when acting a little impulsively.

2.) Cece: The Love Legacy. UUUnnnnnffff! Blaine=HAWT. A war torn civilization with characters who are super adorable, edgy and have realistic flaws. One day we'll learn how they ended up as they are now. Until then, the suspense is killer.

3.) LilMissLau: Hopeless Abandon Oh. Em. GEE. That is one story idea that I've kicked around myself, never able to reconcile all the loose ends in my head. But she did it. And she's doing it. And it's amazing. I don't want to give the plot away as I would rob you of discovering her stunning, poetic visuals and a couple of characters whose adventures consistently leave me breathless.

4.) Nirar: The Kahekilis Gorgeous sims who get up to everything under the sun and make me want to explore my own game further. She's also on the brink of the ultimate Generation 10 and I'mma cry so hard if that proves to be the end. Nirar also has some fantastically funny side blogs. My fave happens to be Jack's Beach Babies. But there might be some prejudice there. ;)

5.) Heaven: The Avendales / Are You the One? The Avendales have had a bumpy road to travel, but things seem to be looking up for the family. Wonderfully unique sims and stunning photos. My graphics card wants to be like hers when it grows up one day.

Are You the One? is a sims version of the MTV guilty pleasure reality show. Love.It! (Harper and Kelley! 5evah! <3)

6.) Buckley: Pixel Rust Sims, soap opera style. I have no idea how she's keeping it all straight, but it's replaced The Young and the Restless as my fav daytime drama. What a twisted web she's woven with some of the most beautiful sims I've ever seen!

7.) Jazen: Kiss of a Vampire I follow this blog in quiet, reading and marveling over the author's ability to make me root for and love the bad guy. Like LOVE.HIM. Swoon over him! Adore him! It's nearing the end and I'm going to be a basket case as I scramble to find something else to read where the bad guy sometimes has to be the knight in shining armor.

8.) Marsar: A Pair of Brown Eyes Will they? Won't they? A tug of war over a woman with enough courage to try and forge her own path set in the Victorian era that makes me sigh over the romance and manly men she writes so well.

9.) ConvictedDreamer: The Marquel RLC Doll lovely sims finding their way through life and death. Sometimes sweet, sometimes sinister I love this story and her vibrant characters.


The Questions:
From Toxi:
1. Have you had a hobby/interest that you have completely given up nowadays? What and why?
Knitting. lol. Because I'm a  s   l   o   w  knitter and I'd rather sim.

2. If you and your family or your friends were to go on an outing nearby, where would you go and what would you do? If you went alone, would you go to the same places or do something completely different?
Oh wow. Uh... we'd most likely go to the local minor league baseball park to watch a game.
If I were alone I'd for sure do something different. lol. I would most likely either go to Crystal Bridges because I don't get to go nearly often enough. Or I'd go poking around in all the flea markets and antique shops I don't get to go to nearly often enough. lol

3. Best memory of something you and a sibling/cousin or a friend did when you were kids?
Oh wow. This is going to sound so awful, but it's really not. My mom was/is an extremely strict parent so when I'd go see my cousin my aunt would often let me do things I wasn't allowed to do normally, like wear shorts that showed my knees or listen to pop music. ZOMG Madonna was so awesome. The year I turned 10 my spring break was during my cousin's not spring break so I was going to go to school with her (yes. I went to school voluntarily for spring break.) and my aunt bought me a pair of shorts and a tank top (holy crow, I got to show knees and shoulders all.in.one.outfit? Scandalous!) that she let me wear and a couple of boys my cousin crushed hard on approached me the day I was there and asked me out. I cried. It was the first time I felt that I might not be so ugly as I often felt. Later, I found out my cousin had heard them talking about how cute I was and she had encouraged them to approach me. That's when I found out that as a person, I might have a little bit of worth. It was also when I found out just how far a little generosity can go.

4. Most useful mod and most useful setting you use while playing TS3? If you don't use mods, why? WHY!???
One? ONE most useful??? ONE SETTING?!?!? But, butbutbut, there are so many that are essential! lol
Prolly the entire NRaas suite of mods. Most helpful to me are the genetic blending settings in SP:Pregnancy or Population of something like that. No.More.Clones! And Retuner is pretty awesome IMO. Don't want your sims staring at the TV all day, but they're rolling constant wishes to own one? Fine! Buy it and make is so they never watch it. HA!

5. What's your favourite perfume, and if you don't use perfume, favourite lotion/soap or favourite natural smell. 
Victoria's Secret Bombshell. Cause I'm totally a bombshell. L O L

6. What's your least favourite household task to do, and what don't you mind as much?
Cooking/baking. I like good food and I cannot lie. lol. I also can't stand a dirty kitchen and if I made the mess I know what to clean up and where. =D

7. If you were to learn something you know very little about, what would you most like to learn?  
History of any kind. We own probably 8 history text books and a bajillion biographies but I can't get enough. Learning about others' mistakes and glories is a wonderful way to make our world a better place. And there's so much of it, how can anyone ever do more than just scratch the surface?

8. What kind of (non-existing) expansion would you want the most from EA? 
A complete and working OPEN FOR BUSINESS for Sims3. The bits and pieces of PC from the store just isn't enough to really make it work.

9. If you make your own CC, what are you most proud of? Who is your favourite creator of clothes and objects? 
I love you, Toxi. :D I am currently most proud of my drinking fountain collection. I spent a month handpainting textures for those and they are friggin' kickin'. I mean, wow. They look so good in game!
My fav clothes creator... Geez. There are so many. Haha. Buckley and SimplexSims are probably my favorite converters(Buckley for maternity conversions, and SimplexSims for offering my Teens and Elders a much nicer wardrobe than they've ever had before,) though I LOVE Buckley's original creations also, so she's on the creators list... The other would probably be AllAboutStyle.
How could anyone not say their fav object creator is Sandy? (Around the Sims) Wow!

10. Tell me about some weird/special food from your region or where you grew up, or from your own family. If nothing comes to mind, what's your favourite dish? Main course and dessert. 
My family has a top secret fruitcake recipe. lol. So many people don't like fruitcakes, but this one has converted quite a few doubters. I can't stand fruitcake that isn't this fruitcake. Then again, it's soaked in a dessert wine for 2 months before serving. How could it not be amazeballs? xD
A special food from my region would have to be the locally ground blue grits and all the special rices that are grown around here. In fact, a lot of people around here would rather have a bowl of buttered rice with a little sugar sprinkled on than oatmeal for breakfast. (Arkansas, yo. We're nuts.)

11. Which is the best book on the top shelf of your nearest bookcase? (if you're at home - if you're away, just name a good book plz). 
I'm going to randomly 5 select books from that shelf on the bookcase next to me because I love them all and that's why they're on that particular bookshelf to begin with. The Night Circus(Erin Morgenstern,) 1491(Charles C. Mann,) Cinder(Marissa Meyer,) One Summer(Bill Bryson,) and Three Act Tragedy(Agatha Christie.)

Now for Melissa's questions!:
1. What got you into writing stories with the sims?
Hubs. lol. Hubs couldn't figure out why I spent so much time with them if the story was all in my head. He asked if I would write it out for him so I did. He never read it but I kept writing.

2. If you could pick five personality traits for your Simself, what would they be? I know when I do it, there’s always more than five I want to use, but just think of the first five that come to mind.
Absent-Minded, Genius, Bookworm, Shy, Excitable
And those aren't the ones I'd PICK if I were given complete rein, but those are the most true to myself. :)

3. Is there a time of day that’s the best time for you to write?
Weekday mornings, when Hubs is at work and kids are at school.

4. If you could jump into a time machine like the Sims can, where would you choose to go and why?
I would go back to college me and force myself to stay broken up with hubs #1. I would also make myself finish my degree.

5. Have you got a favourite sim?
Just one?!? lol. I'm not usually a fan of sim!toddlers, but I adore my Vivia currently. She's a lot of fun.

6. Are any of your characters or situations based on real life?
Good gracious, of course!  Perhaps not all of them, but still.

7. What made you start playing Sims?
hubs #1's best friend brought the 1 year old TheSims over one night and insisted I try it on my computer, which was in the back room, so the boys could play their RPG's in the living room without me. It backfired. They all ended up swarming after hearing me crack up time after time. xD I also was completely unable to stop playing.

8. Other than Sims and writing, what are some of your other hobbies?
I'm working on a cookbook that collects family and my own recipes. It'll never be finished though since I'm  s   l   o   w.

9. What is your favourite aspect about writing?
The outlet it gives my imagination. I'm not a housewife or a mom or a special needs advocate when I write. I'm a painter, a psychic, a cop, a judge and jury all in one in a world that follows the rules I made up for it.

10. What is your least favorite aspect?
With writing? The polishing. If I polish too much I hate it. If I don't polish enough I hate it. If I hate it how can I show it to anyone else?

11. What inspires you the most? Music? A great book? A walk outside? Something else?
A little bit of everything. Talking with others, reading the news, reading a book, discovering a new artist or song, hearing how my kids day went. I never lack inspiration, motivation is my kryptonite. lol

And now! My questions for my nominees:
1.) What got you hooked on The Sims franchise?

2.) What is your essential CC site? It can offer mods or clothing, or that one piece of CC you can't play without and can be made by you or someone else.

3.) How do you find your CC?

4.) Where were you when the idea for your story first come to you? What was going on?

5.) Where do you stand in the Oxford Comma debate?

6.) If you could try one of the foods in the sims game, which food would you choose?

7.) Do you have an all-time favorite sim?

8.) What is one thing you can do in TheSims (1,2,3,4) that you have yet to try? If you've tried it all (Geez, I'm jealous) what is your favorite thing to do with your sims?

9.) How do you deal with writer's block?

10.) Have you ever based a character off of someone you know? If so, does this person know you based a character on them? Why or Why not? And if not, why?

11.) What do you draw inspiration from?

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Downloads- Objects and Poses- Sunny's Drinking Fountain Decor and Poses

Did you ever notice there were no drinking fountains for Sims 3? No? Prepare to get thirsty, because here are six to fill the void you never knew you had! And not just decor, poses for these fountains so they're not merely decor, they're poseable background decor! *confetti*



More Than You Ever Wanted To Know About Decorative Drinking Fountains

Under the Function Tab, these are found in the Decor category, and are under both the Sculpture and Misc. Decor subs.
Under the Room Tab, they are found in Kitchen and Outdoors, and are under the Eating Out, Accents, Lawn Ornaments, and Misc. Decor subs.





FileName Cost HLOD Poly Count MLOD Poly Count # of Channels # of Presets # of Slots
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #1 §150 454 199 3 2 2
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #1a §300 908 398 3 2 4
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #2 §200 544 200 2 2 2
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #3 §200 756 300 2 6 0
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #4 §250 2140 502 2 6 2
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #5 §250 2140 502 2 6 1


I have to draw attention to the Poly Counts on Drinking Fountains #4 & #5 as I consider those to be rather high. Be careful.

Another note, thought not so important to be bolded, the wall mounted drinking fountains (#1 and #1a) do not snap to the wall. Don't blame me if you leave your drinking fountains floating out in space and they fall on some poor sims toe.

Each of the Drinking Fountains comes with more than one usable preset. I would have made more but my brain parachuted out of my right ear promptly drowning in my coffee before I could get that done. Drinking Fountains #3, #4 & #5 are also intended more for outdoor use, but I completely forgot to put them outside for a pic. My apologies.



The Simlish on the Wall Mounted Drinking Fountains is an overlay. It says 'Push.' And you thought it said something naughty, didn't you?

Info About the Poses For the Exhaustive Drinking Fountains

There are 10 poses for the fountains: 3 for adult sims, 3 for teens sims and 4 for child sims. The teen poses are identical to the adult poses. Pose numbers correspond with the name of the drinking fountain it was made for.



Using adult/teen pose 1 on Fountain #1a will need a smidge bit of alt shifting, as will child pose 3 using Fountain #5. Pose 3 for all age groups will work for Fountains #4 &#5 as well.

As per usual, posecoded images are included in each of the pose archives.


Download-Fountains
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #1
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #1a
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #2
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #3
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #4
Sunny's Drinking Fountain #5
Or collect them all! Sunny's Drinking Fountain Collection-Merged File

Download- Poses
Sunny's Drinking Fountain Poses- POSELISTED
Sunny's Drinking Fountain Poses- NOT poselisted


The above was made using Wings3d, MilkShape, Blender, GIMP, Paint.Net, PhotoshopCS6, TSRW, S3PE, fairy dust, an oxford comma, an insane amount of coffee and a few pots of chamomile. There might have been a significant amount of alcohol fueling it as well.

Thanks to the Jones' for S3PE. CMar for the Meshing Toolkit. Wes Howe for the nifty Milkshape tools I have in there and whose name escapes me that I think I used... thanks brain *prods soggy, dead brain hopefully. To Cmomoney for the Blender addons. To Inkandchaos for the awesome Immajer-Simlish font. To OrangeMittens for the tutorials on how to make objects from scratch and how to make poses. To those who gave much needed encouragement as these were being polished up. To all who read my scribblings. And to all of you who put up with my ramblings and made it this far.


What are you still reading for? Go download the goods! ;)

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Chapter 3.12- It's Not You


Don't be angry - don't be sad
Don't sit crying over good times you've had
There's a girl right next to you
And she's just waiting for something to do

Well there's a rose in a fisted glove
And the eagle flies with the dove
And if you can't be with the one you love honey
Love the one you're with

-Clifton George Bailey, Stephen Stills





            It had been the longest twenty minutes of her life.
            At first she’d tried to walk off, but he’d arrested her wrist before she’d made it one step. Despite showing her he didn’t want her to leave, he’d not looked at her, not spoken a word. The only movement she’d caught was his sliding down the couch, lying flat.
            Finally, she’d slipped in beside him, holding him, waiting for… something. Anything.



            Her turning down his proposal shouldn’t have been such a surprise. They’d never talked about anything more than what they currently had. She’d never dropped a hint about wanting to get married, much less get engaged. He knew her desire to go it alone. And didn’t he say how this had been his dream? To fight crime undercover? Making the world a better place?
            It had to be that Dove’s birthday made him feel the distance more keenly than usual. He was desperate and had said it in haste. He didn’t mean it.
            “It’ll be okay. I still love you.”



            There was the first movement he’d made in half an hour. With his eyes now shut tight, he turned his head away from her by about a millimeter. Taking it as a sign her words had found a mark, she continued.
            “In no time at all we’ll both have forgotten about this. No one else knows, so there’s no embarrassing explanation to give anyone.”
            Roger’s chest heaved, a choking hiccup accompanying it.
            “Look,” maybe she needed to change tack? She hadn’t meant to upset him further. “Look, we both know I’m not the marrying type. I don’t want to-”



            Shaking slightly now, Roger squeezed his eyes even tighter for a brief moment. Afraid he might be crying, Mariah began to be concerned. ‘I don’t want to’ might have been the wrong place to stop there.
            “I don’t want to tie anyone down. Much less *be* tied down. It’s always been me and someone else. I need some time to-”
            The breath escaping Roger’s lips began to be ragged. How come he wasn’t coming out of it?
            “Time, I need time to-to-to prove to… to prove to me, myself, that I’m an adult-”



            This time, there was no denying it was a sob. His entire body shook from it.
            “Hey now!” Mariah cooed. “Hey, look at me. C’mon.”
            Instead, Roger tightened his grip on himself, pursing his lips, making his neck steel, refusing to budge.
            “Alright, fine. You don’t have to look at me, but I know you can hear me. So hear this. I love you. I really do. I love you so much more than I ever thought it was possible to love anyone. It’s not you. It’s me! I’m nuts! Haha-”



            Roger stopped holding it back, sobs deep and hoarse escaping freely. Even his head weighed more on her arm than it had moments before.
            Despite her nerves, it was only now that Mariah was truly frightened. She’d never seen a man cry before; never been a witness to the breakdown of what she’d always considered towering strength. Every moan, every breath he struggled to gain, each trembling tear cut her terribly. Beneath her hand, his heart beat so fast she worried it might fly away.
            When his dad had died, his tears had been silent. This level of grief alarmed and confused her. Worst of all, for the first time ever she felt as though she were seeing him truly bare.



            “Roger?”
            It seemed his tears had lasted forever but, at last, they were slowing.
            “Roger, sweetheart?”
            As his cries had slackened she could almost make out syllables hidden in his groaning. But she’d yet been able to put a meaning, or flesh out words from them.
            “Roger, I do love you. No matter what I said earlier, I love you. Just… don’t be angry. Don’t be sad. We’ll survive. Together. I just need more time.”



            Heaving a deep, final, sigh, Roger pushed himself up, wiping his face with an arm as he went.
            “You just need more time. Don’t be angry,” he repeated. “Don’t be sad.”
            Reaching over to rub his back, Mariah waited. Just what she waited for, she didn’t know. This situation was so new to her, yet it had to be just as new to Roger.
            “The eagle flies with the dove,” Roger whispered. Still, Mariah waited, more confused than ever.
            “The Eagle flies with the Dove,” Roger repeated, stronger this time. Eyes wider than ever, Mariah’s hand stopped on his shoulder. Had she broken him the way her mother had been broken?



            Brushing her hand from his shoulder he stood.
            Had her single word rejection really done this? Or was this too much emotional shock after his father’s passing? Maybe he’d needed to grieve more over his dad first, before proposing. But how was she supposed to know he would do that?



            Slowly raising herself to sitting, Mariah jumped as Roger abruptly turned and began quickly pacing, muttering to himself as he went.
            “It’s not just that I don’t pay it. After everything, it would have made more sense to punish him in that way. There’s also been no secrecy within the household about who isn’t.”
            Dimly, she could see what he might be referencing and her fear intensified.
            “And time? Isn’t 5 years and three kids long enough?”



            On one of his turns between the loveseat and the wall he caught Mariah watching him intently and paused.
            “You’ve given yourself away, my dear,” a sad smile adorning his words as he resumed pacing. “Don’t be angry? Don’t be sad? And at the end of the chorus? When you can’t be with the one you love, love the one you’re with.”
            Surely he wasn’t suggesting-
            “I should have seen it so long ago. PlumbBob! How blind I’ve been! The lengths you’ve gone to to protect the one you love should have been the biggest red flag ever. Watcher. Stupid, desperate me.”



            “You’ve had every right, and all the time in the world, to make him pay as a woman scorned would want to do. But instead you covered for him. You’ve buried your feelings so deep, I wonder if you realize they’re still there.
            “As for myself? You were lonely and I was there. It wasn’t exactly the biggest jump in the world to go from friends to more for you was it? It’s precisely what I wanted; why would I complain? Why would I stand in your way? I thought I knew you better than anyone else in the world. You kept your secret. And I? Fell for it. But no more. No more, Mariah.”



            “You love me only because I’m the one you’re with. Your love, your whole shining pure bright as heaven love, isn’t for me. It never has been mine, and neither, truly, have you. There isn’t enough time left in this world to make that happen.”
            Shrinking into the cushions, Mariah wished she could cry as he had done earlier. But the empty pit inside her offered no relief.
            “I love you,” she said, small and weak. But he didn’t respond and she knew those words were no longer enough.



            The silence between them stretched fragile and unbroken until she couldn’t stand it and glanced up at him. It was no relief to find him looking calm and serene as a summer’s day. Everything he’d said until now had been quiet and gently said. If only he’d been mad, stormed, ranted and raged at her as she deserved, perhaps she’d have been able to find the words to defend herself in some way. As it was, what more could she say?
            “Yeah, that’s what I’m thinking too.” Roger answered her unspoken words. “After all, we’ve grown up together. And you-” Roger chuckled, not unkindly, “You have the ability to ‘read minds.’ Of course we’re thinking the same thing. And despite it all, I don’t know who you are.”



            Still, he steadily gazed at her. The corners of his mouth slowly sinking the longer he watched her. His eyes kept a soft, pitying look giving her hope that maybe, if she could ever find the right words, he might be persuaded to be reasonable.
            How wrong she was. In a moment, he returned her devastating whisper with a whisper of his own.
            “Goodbye, Mariah.”



            And with those words he turned



And he walked



Away.



*slam*










            Damn Andre.

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So which of his surmises are true and which are not and what might be half way true I’ll let you guess.
To spell it out for those who might not remember it all, or who might have missed his meaning: Roger is accusing Mariah of still carrying a torch for Andre. He was using the song lyrics to piece together his puzzle there. As in: Mariah can’t be with the one she loves (Andre) so she’s loving the one she’s with (Roger.) And Roger isn’t going to be satisfied with second place.
He was always too good for her.
After that, replies to comments will take longer than usual as were taking our first ever real vacation as a family this weekend. Wahoo!